There are times when God speaks to us and we feel comfort, hope and affirmation. At times, we feel, “WOW! That is awesome!” Other times, “Oh, duh! I should’ve thought of that earlier, Lord. Thanks for reminding me.” Had one of those “Duh!” words from Him today.
About 3 months ago, I received a word from the Lord that He was going to miraculously, supernaturally heal a friend and I was going to be a part of it. That word could not have been more clear if it had been audible. And, as if to confirm it, within a short span of time, I had 3 visions of her wedding day, and not long ago, a dream of her healed. So with confidence and faith, that is how I prayed, privately and, together with my niece, with her, and have continued to pray…..and have not seen supernatural healing. Healing, yes, in stages. But, not the miraculous, supernatural that God spoke to me about.
Something happens when you fervently believe God will heal…and it doesn’t seem like He does or is. I’ve heard some think it’s cruel to get someone’s hopes up by praying so confidently for healing. But, then, is God cruel to get our hopes up….telling us something will be and even confirming it only to not bring the healing we hoped for?
Sad to say, I have not kept the healings I have seen in my mind and have focused on the one that I haven’t seen….and as a result….grew discouraged to the point that yesterday I couldn’t even pray for anoint my grandson with oil and pray for him.
Then comes the “Duh!” moment. His voice was clear, “You silly girl! You’re acting like a field goal kicker who missed a 65 yard field goal in an important game and so now you’re hesitant to even try a 20 yarder during warmups. It’s in nailing the 20, 25, and 30 yarders that give you the confidence to keep trying the 65 yarders.” I guess God likes football after all. Or, at least He knew I’d see the point by using a football analogy.
Suffice it to say, I started kicking some 20 yarders again…..and someday, that 65 yard kick is going straight through the uprights!